Currently Reading Every Woman's Battle : Discovering God's Plan for Sexual and Emotional Fulfillment By Shannon Ethridge see related

This is the first summer where I thought I would be alone. But guess what, my girl-friend moved in. Dam. I just had enough space to expand my inflatable doll collection. Now I have to deflate them all, an Aero bed is boring, it has no form. 

Currently Reading The Spirit of Happiness : Discovering God's Purpose for Your Life By T. Byram Karasu see related

So today I was Longs Drug store, trying to by cold medicine. I had to take a slip up to the Pharmacist and show my ID just to get cold medicine. When I presented my ID and it said, "Diana" on it, He looked at me and I just said, "Haven't you ever met a Transgender person before?".

What the "Hell". Just because it has pseudoephedrine in it I have to buy it over the counter. So what if I was buying a box of cold medicine and a carton of  Summers Eve Feminine Care. I had COUPONS!

Maybe I should of gone back to the pharmacist an bought a handful, but the limit is only 2. Its not like smurfing is illegal.

Smurfing is the act of considering every possible store in your area which might sell products with pseudoephedrine, driving to each store, and purchasing that store's two-package limit. The reason it's called smurfing is because large groups of meth addicts can be seen assembled together in this ritual, standing in a big conga line, clutching bottles of blue cough medicine. To bad I can't use Tiger Balm to create a cheap High. But then I would miss rubbing the green stuff all over myself.

Currently Reading Consensual Sadomasochism : How to Talk About It and How to Do It Safely By Bill Henkin, William A. Ph.D. Henkin, Sybil Holiday see related

Low Self Esteem and Chronic bed wetting are difficult conditions that affect virtually every part of  my life. I found myself falling behind at work, school, and life. Often that's the hardest part of these conditions. I set unreasonable goals for myself . But I don't expect to do everything that you can do normally, like relationships, stitching, talking to people, playing video games, and watching Adult movies with no females in them. My moods are expected to improve little by little, not overnight. People rarely "help me." Getting better takes time.  

I've tried  to be around other people who like "Harry Potter", hanging out with people who go to Renaissance Fairs, students who eat, drink, sleep ITASA. I tell everyone my feelings. It's usually better than being alone and keeping to myself in the MATURE section of the Video store.

I've avoided making big life decisions. I've tried to make a big decision - switching jobs, getting married, or showering daily.  Asking someone you trust to help you is hard, that's what I learned from Tinkie Winkie. I think other Chinese might be able to see my situation in a more cheerful way if I didn't always yell at them to "speak English".

Currently Reading Breaking the Bamboo Ceiling : Career Strategies for Asians By Jane Hyun see related

Today! I am a Man, but I still feel kind of like a little girl inside. I'm gonna leave my life at UCSD, I hope. 3 years of my life as a Senior, thought I could do it in 2. 

I started interviewing for jobs, not sure about the one at Yoshinoya Rice Bowl. They said that I kept my hands in my pockets to much during the interview, but I had to go to the bathroom, how else was I going hold it.

Next interview was for Herbal Life. This time, the H.R. person said I was not trusting enough because I kept talking about Brian, they kept on asking me who is this person, Brian. I said he gets me through those lonely nites when no one will answer my cell phone calls.

I have one last interview with the RNC, Reseda Neighborhood Council. They want to use my grass roots organizing skills and attract more Adult Film Studios away from Tarzana. They need a bigger tax base, you know how I like taxes.